-Thomas Meeha
There are only a few days until I leave the city and the home I have lived in for the past 22 years. and move 4 hours away for college and for a new life with my fiance. And it has been rough as the reality has set in. Waiting is the worst part, as you live in between where you've been and where you're going. Then there's the fact that I am going to have to part with those to whom I am closest.
I'm going to change. The reality of moving out of my comfort zone and starting the new, grown up chapter of my life, is scary.
I can't say what's going to happen once I turn the page.
It's true: endings are hard. Maybe it's because I can see where I've been and where I'm going, but I didn't really want to arrive at the destination quite yet. Because then it's all over and I've got to figure out what to do next.
It's uncertainty that gives life its terror- and its thrill. I know where I'm going, I just don't know exactly what is going to happen when I get there, or what will happen once I'm gone.
I don't have the heart for goodbyes, because I don't really have the words. How does one fit the thankfulness to those one has known their entire life into something that wouldn't take an hour to read?
I remember watching the series finale of M.A.S.H. with a friend (on a rerun, of course). I was young, so I don't remember much about it. What stuck with me, however, was the end as the character parted. I vaguely remember watching the closing scene and asking my friend, "What is that for?" For, from the helicopter, "GOODBYE" was spelled out in large stones. "It's because he wouldn't say goodbye." My friend explained.
He couldn't- or wouldn't- say goodbye to his best friend. So he wrote it instead.
It wasn't a paragraph. It wasn't several pages of a letter written thoughtfully and painstakingly. It wasn't a poem.
It was beautiful.
It was simple.
And it said all that needed to be said, in the end, because in that seven letter word, was everything.
And so, when it comes time for me to cast off from this harbor, rolling into uncharted waters, I shall try my best to wave farewell and say- or rather, not say-
